Sealed deep within

My mind is blank. So blank I can’t let one single thought in. No, one I can. But it’s not really a thought, more of a memory really... 

I’m staring out over the sea to the high mountain peaks. Strangely pinkish they are, caressed by the gentle last rays of sunlight. I’m haunted by an idea… I feel like I need my time with you, alone. I turn to my left expecting to see you beside me, but all my eyes meet is empty space.

And I can swear I heard your voice just now…

I let my eyes pass over the landscape for a moment longer, but not more… I get up and head for the beach. It’s so peaceful at that time of day. It’s just me and the sea.

And you.

I turn again, instinctively, but for the second time my eyes seize nothing but thin air. I long for your smile, for your laugh… I long for your words.

And yet they’re gone. Far away.

I keep walking along the beach, leaving behind nothing but my footprints in the wet sand. The subtle north wind tousles my hair and whistles in my ear.

Sounds a lot like you. I’m tempted to turn again… and I do, only to be left disappointed… again.

I need you…

… need you like the countless fish need the sea, like the summer heat needs an unexpected cool rain…

I need you the way only I can need you…

A loud splash echoes to my right and then cold water pours over my feet. I shake my head and look around. The beach is empty – the way I found it when I first came…

And then… the world starts turning, faster than ever before. It swirls me into its hurricane of emotions…

I am spinning and spinning, and spinning until I feel like drowning deep within its secrets… Memory ends soon, I think to myself.

There are secrets that expect me to uncover them, but I refuse.

Not now.

Not without you…

… and not alone.

I prefer to simply wake up and wait. I have all the time in the world.

No… we do.